We interviewed Waluscha De Sousa for Humans Of Bollywood and the woman opened her heart out about Bollywood, double standards, and the changing face of the industry.
My life took a different turn when I fell in love, when I was 19. I was a complete romantic, and it hasn’t changed me – I’m still a die-hard romantic, even till date. I went with the flow, with what my heart was telling me to do at that time. It felt like the right thing to do. I don’t fight life necessarily, I feel like we have this one life to live. Maybe a part of me was in a hurry to experience life and experience what it’s like to be married. It was the dream life that I thought could be reality… so I followed my heart, did what it made me do, and no regrets whatsoever. Then of course I got really busy with a completely different life… whether it was dance, or music, or acting – it was all a passion that I sort of put aside for a while because I dedicated my life towards family. So i feel like I’ve lived my life in reverse: a lot of girls, they go after their careers, make something out of themselves and then settle down. For me, I did that initially… and now I have all the time to concentrate on what I do and what I love doing, and take it forward!
I had my babies really very young, and at 20 I started getting ‘mother roles’ for TV commercials – overnight. People didn’t for a second stop to think that this girl is only 20 years old. So I faced it at that point. And although you had a few people that said ‘Waluscha, no, it has changed, the industry has changed’ you had a lot of people saying to hide this fact as well. So I had to sort of fight with myself, thinking what am I going to do – can I hide it? Should I hide it? And then I said that you sort of live a double life, you’re living a life for the camera and one for yourself when you get back home… and it tears you up from within, because you’re not being honest to who you are. So a lot of people were like Waluscha you’re throwing yourself in front of a bus right now, but [being honest] gives you a sense of freedom – it is who you are, and if you’re going to shy away from who you are, you’re never going to be free. That’s going to close you up even as an actor, I feel. And emotionally, it will tear you.
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